So I guess you can take the girl out of the city but you can't keep the boys from following. At least that's my current dilemma and I think I may have painted myself into a corner on this one kids!
So here's the scenario: Girl dates two boys, girl moves 2 hours away fully anticipating that one or both boys will lose interest and go away thus resolving said dilemma, both boys amp up their game and leave girl in very sticky situation.
Yep, they followed me. With enthusiasm. Normally loads of extra attention and confessions of deep rooted feelings of lovey stuff would be my dream come true but under this particular set of circumstances, not so much.
Twin has brought his A game in light of my need for assistance with all things move related and I'm guessing partly in response to him knowing that I'm dating LB and intend to continue to do so. LB has been more enthusiastic than ever and has moved mountains to find a way to spend extra time with me. So what happens when both boys are on overdrive for time with yours truly? Scheduling conflicts, that's what!
This first weekend in my new place was the perfect example of why I should have a rotating door installed. For real. Twin held down Friday night, but then LB got off work on Saturday and wanted to come down on Friday instead of Saturday as we had planned. I avoided that awkward moment by telling LB I already had plans, which I did, and that we would need to keep on Saturday.
So I sent Twin off with a pout on Saturday morning with no promise of when he would see me again. He was staying with some friends in the city because he was going to a concert a venue close by but assured me he wouldn't show up and cause drama for me and LB. LB arrived a little late but we salvaged the evening with a great dinner and some live music. He had to head out of town early on Sunday so I was left to my own devices. Until Twin met me for some time in the sun, which turned into the day, which turned into fireworks at a festival later that night. Sigh....
Here is my problem. I like both guys. I want to spend time with both guys. I totally look at each of them as separate relationships, independent of each other, and I have things I really like and things I'm not so thrilled about with both of them. I have no reason to quit either except for the guilt I have about spending my time and feelings on two different people.
I think I may just be poly amorous. And I don't know what I think about that. It's been a foreign concept for me up to this point, never really understanding how a person could have two completely different relationships going simultaneously. But I do. I don't really have a reason or desire to break off either one of them.
So now what?!? This is totally new territory for me. I think I've discovered a new level of emotional dysfunction even for me.
I know that Twin's tolerance for the time-share arrangement is growing thin and I can't blame him. And LB is not as aware as he could be of the exact nature of Twin and I's deal. I guess the situation may resolve itself on its own but I'm not sure if I want to lose either of them. I guess I'll either have to make a decision of who to continue with or wait for one of them to tell me to F off. Can't say I wouldn't deserve it.