Happy SCF kids! I can't speak for all of you lovelies because you are spread out all over the place from a geo standpoint, but most of this week has been beautiful. It's the first warmth and sun in months. It's almost a little too beautiful because I have found myself outside and slacking a whole lot this week. No regrets though..you have to live in the moment right?
So I find myself in an interesting situation. Well, not sure if interesting is the right term or not but we'll stick with that for now.
Here's the deal:
Jr High Crush has officially fallen hard. And he has attempted in several direct and indirect ways to slap the "GF" title on me, all of which have been rebuffed by me. I have told him repeatedly to not get attached. We haven't seen each other in almost 2 weeks because of kid schedule and travel stuff. I am fine with that. He is not. I don't know what else to do to get the point across that I just want to keep it as is, an occasional "cool when we hang out, OK when we don't" set up . I don't think he will go for that.
I can tell you what will end up happening. He's going to get hurt. Because inevitably, I'll pull something bitchy out of frustration just like I always have done when I feel stuck or pressured into something. I know, what a problem right? "He likes me too much" .....boo freakin' hoo...
But is it a problem because I don't like setting someone up for failure and yet I feel like that is where this is headed. After our lackluster sex situ, having nothing in common, and my impending move, nothing good will come of this for him, or for us. I hate this part, particularly this time because I really think he has no idea it's coming.
We are going out on Saturday with a bunch of friends and I know we will have a good time. He is planning on staying here afterwards which I'm fine with. I just don't know exactly how to handle it from that point. It's tricky stuff I tell ya! Someone is going to end up unhappy, and I would rather have it be him than both of us if I'm being honest.
So I'm back to the dating drawing board. Oh joy. I'm thinking I might just find a shiny new boy toy to entertain myself with for a while. I kind of like that idea better than dating at the moment.
Wish me luck!
For this SCF's song, I'm going to torture you all with the song that has been stuck in my head for almost this entire week. I hate these guys because their songs get stuck in your head for so freakin' long. It's just so catchy..... But on a good note, the cars in the video are pretty freakin' hot... I know my darling Jewels will like it!