Happy "Soft-Core Friday" (and day 2 of reverb11) kids!
I realized today that I only have 2 more weeks of work for this year so it is indeed a good Friday! This is going to be a bit of a mixed post because I can't let a SCF slide by but I really want to keep playing with reverb11 so you get both in one post: bonus!
I'm finding myself on this "Soft-Core Friday" with the official title of "Girlfriend" to the Twin. It kind of came out of nowhere and I guess I shouldn't be surprised because, well, I have been playing the roll of gf for some time now but hadn't actually had him say it until last night.
Last night we attended a swank giant holiday event downtown. All the movers and shakers were there. Twin was truly in his element. The man knows everyone and from what I observed, he seems genuinely liked by everyone he engaged with on the three floors of fa-la-laing fun we wandered through last night. I was watching him interact with ease and when he walked away, there were genuine smiles, no eye rolling or "geesh, what a tool" comments from the group he left so that's a good sign.
He has social skills. And possible political aspirations. We joked about that on the way back to the car, he told me I needed to clean up my past if I was going to be the First Lady. I think he was only half joking though.
I was introduced to many people last night, always as "this is my girlfriend..." It was weird, but I kind of liked it. So it looks like I have a boyfriend now. Hmmm... that's usually where things go awry but we shall see.
This is the song that has been playing in my head since... so this is your SCF song. An oldie but goodie. If I'm going to be a gf, I want to be this kind. Enjoy!
But enough about my bf/gf stuff. Onto reverb11
Day 2: My Children Will Do it Differently
If you could choose one thing that your children will do or experience in a different way than you have, what would it be and why?
Wow, this is a good prompt for today. I only have one child, the princess, but I have many things that I hope she does and experiences differently than I did. My biggest wish for her is that she always knows who she truly is and that she is loved and worthy exactly how she is. I hope she never lets anyone make her question that or doubt herself and her worth.
My parents really did their best to always make me feel that way. I can't fault them for anything. It was me letting other people override what I knew to be true about myself. I let negative comments chip away at what I thought I knew about myself, let doubt creep in over time and started to think that maybe what I thought about myself was wrong, that others saw me more clearly and that what they saw was truer than what I perceived myself to be.
I think everyone goes through a period of time of self-doubt. I am sure that the princess will hear mean comments or have her feelings hurt, it's inevitable as some people just live to put other people down. I want her to rise above. To KNOW in her heart and in her head that she is not what someone else says she is, but that she is loved and worthy and exactly who God intended her to be when she was created. And I hope that is enough for her.
I hope she is strong enough to not compromise herself to fit in or be accepted. I fell into that too many times and paid the price for not being true to myself and acting in a way that was not authentic to who I was at my core. I've written about that in previous posts, I hope she never experiences the pain and regret that I brought on to myself through those decisions.
She will have to face tough times in her life, I know that no one is exempt from that pain, I just hope that it's not self-inflicted through bad decisions made in an effort to make someone else happy with who she is.