Day 28: Forgiveness - What one thing do you need to forgive yourself for this year?
I am far from perfect. I can be selfish, clueless, and more than a little abrasive at times. I know all of this. But I do hate to hurt people's feelings with my words or my actions.
You all know how much I enjoy my shenanigans and all, but there are times when I will take it there for selfish reasons knowing that ultimately, it will end up hurting the person on the other side of the equation. And yes, I know we are all consenting adults and no one is requiring arm twisting to get tangled up with me, but I do regret my situation with my friend I refer to as "long-suffering T". Here's the story on him in case you need a refresher or weren't along for the ride at that point.
I still hold a pretty decent pile of guilt over creating that situation because I knew that it couldn't be a casual or simple thing with us and I knew his feelings were already involved and I would be creating a more complicated situation that just would not end well. But I did it anyways.
I guess now is as good as time as anyways to own it, accept it, forgive myself for it, and let it go.
Day 29: Shaking Things Up - Looking towards 2012, what can you do to shake things up a little next year?
This question has me thinking up all sorts of fun and devious things that I could employ to just flip the script on my regular not-super-exciting situation.In reality though, I will probably explore some more practical ways to make things look different in 2012 than they did in the current year.
Most likely, 2012 will see me pursuing an opportunity that will take me in a new direction with my career, and may come with a relocation requirement at some point. There are many unknowns still and any type of change, especially one that require a move of any distance, would be especially tricky but I'm finally excited again about my prospects and the chance to change my story a bit.
Bring it on 2012, bring it on!